Stress...

Where do I even begin? Things have been really rough lately. Work has been pretty awful lately. Everyone got a pay cut, and then today I find out that they laid some people off yesterday. I have never had to worry before if I will still have a job when I go to work the next morning. It really sucks see friends get laid off. I feel awful for them but I also have to be worried about myself to make sure that I still have a job the next day. Work has not been as fun as it normally has been for a long time. There are mornings that I don't feel like rolling out of bed at 2am to get to work. There have been many times lately that I just lay there and hit the snooze button. I am slowly losing the motivation to get up and go to work. I have a very good work ethic and right now that is the only thing that is making me get up and go to work instead of calling in.

And on top of all the crap that is going on at work. its midterm week. I had on midterm last friday which was hell, I had 2 today and I have one that I have to take online and then I have a midterm on thursday. I know that I am doing it to myself to be taking to many hours and work at the same time but i do badly want to graduate next spring. I am so burnt out on school I just want to get past it and be able to move on with my married life. There are so many more things out there for me to do then be in school my entire life. I so badly want out of school. I am so ready to be done.

I know that I prolly have to much on my plate at this time but my hope is to scrafice things now to make for a better future.

I can't wait for the day when I can actually sleep in bed with my husband at the same time. Not this him coming to bed an hour before I have to crawl out of bed for work.

Today has just been a mix between a good and bad day. Work sucked. Classes were pretty good I got out early of all of them. Even though I had 2 tests they were really easy. When I have days that suck and are really stressful it has a tendecny to make me think a lot. And sometimes about things that I dont really want to think about. Today has just been one of those days.